Stuck in My Head

I'm feeling antsy today. There's a sense of low-level anxiety, and I don't seem to know what to do with myself. I've tried cooking, and sewing, and crafting, but nothing really appeals to me right now. Having just completed several sewing projects, I can't seem to find the energy to start a new one just yet.

The weather isn't helping my sense of restlessness, either. It has been damp, raw, and rainy for the past three days, as so often happens when we have a winter storm passing through the desert. I've been stuck in the house too long. Later today I will go for a walk and, hopefully, it will help clear my head.

In all honesty, the weather isn't entirely to blame for my edgyness. I'm sure that lack of exercise and eating too many comforting carbohydrates are partially responsible. But there is something more, something bigger, looming over me. Something that would consume me if I allowed it to do so. It is the thing that blocks me from channeling my energy into something positive. The thing that tells me that I'm not good enough, or smart enough, or talented enough to succeed.

Do I need to explore this blooming sense of inner gloom, locate its source, and eradicate it? Or should I instead listen to its subtle message? Perhaps the latter makes more sense, since this is most likely a spiritual problem and I am, after all, a spiritual person.

A rainy day in Tucson

Belated Christmas Gift for a Teen

Here is the bag I just finished for a dear friend's daughter, who just started high school last week. I thought she'd enjoy something a bit "mod," since that's what seems to be the style right now.

Seeing as how easy this project was, and how well it turned out, I'm planning to make more bags using this pattern and decorating them with different kinds of trim.

Knowing When to Throw Stuff Out

I've never been the type of person who saves things...unless they have sentimental value, of course. My rule of thumb is, I haven't used it in a year, then out it goes. This applies to just about everything, regardless of how "desirable" or expensive it is. But once in a great while, I make an exception to this rule.

Several years ago I bought the mattress of my dreams. It's one of those memory foam mattresses that make you feel like you're sleeping on a cloud. The mattress came with two complimentary pillows, which were made of the same memory foam material. These pillows normally sell of over $100 each, so I thought I was getting a bargain. Boy, was I wrong.

I have tried with all my might to make these pillows work for us. First of all, they are too thick. Secondly, they are too firm. Thirdly, they are too inflexible. Fourthly, they are too rubbery. Fifthly, they give me a backache. And lastly, they generate too much heat, and that's the last thing I need during this time of my life...if you get my drift! So, today, after three long years of hassling with these pillows, I'm tossing them out. And I couldn't be happier about it.

I have struggled with the idea of finding another use for these expensive pillows. It certainly isn't sanitary to donate them to the local White Elephant sale. My husband thought it might help to cut them in half lengthwise to make them thinner, but then they would still be too firm, too inflexible, too rubbery, and too hot. So no matter how "desirable" or expensive they are, they're of no use to me.

We're currently renting in an area that has very strict codes, covenants, and regulations. I have tried with all my might to think of some possible way to use them outdoors, but I can't think of any use that wouldn't violate the CC&R's. If I owned cats, I might try making little beds out of them by carving an oval indentation into the center and then covering each pillow with an nice, fuzzy fabric. But I don't own any cats, nor do I know any cat owners who would be willing to go through the trouble, so this isn't a viable option either.

Last night, I slept without these pillows for the first time in three years. Instead, I used a single, high-quality soft polyfilled pillow. Not only did I wake up feeling refreshed this morning, but guess what? No more backache! As much as I hate to throw out something so expensive, I think it's time to introduce these pillows to the garbage can.

It just goes to show you that certain things just aren't useful, no matter how "desirable" some people think they are, or how expensive they may be. Buying things just because other people find them desirable has gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past. It caused me to accumulate a great deal of debt, which required a painful sacrifice to eliminate. So now I follow my heart instead of the herd. If getting rid of something improves and simplifies my life, then out it goes!

Ban Telemarketers!

In an effort to further simplify my life by eliminating those annoying phone calls from telemarketers, I just registered my new phone number with the National Do Not Call Registry. According to their website, most telemarketers should not call your number once it has been on the registry for 31 days. If they do, you can file a complaint at their website. You can register your home or mobile phone for free.

If you, like me, are sick and tired of getting annoying phone calls from telemarketers, I strongly suggest that you visit https://www.donotcall.gov/register/reg.aspx to sign up for this service.

Clean and Green

In 2001, I developed multiple chemical sensitivity (MCS), which resulted in new and unusual allergies and made me sensitive to certain chemicals, such as cleaning products and new carpet odors. This happened shortly after we moved into a brand new manufactured home, and I suspect that the formaldehyde used in the building products was the cause of my illness.

Many people don't realize that when you purchase a new manufactured home, the vendor asks you to sign a release, which states that you have been made aware that newly built manufactured homes can outgas formaldehyde for up to two years. (After doing some research, I later learned that this is not true. In truth, it can take anywhere between 2 and 20 years for formaldehyde to outgas completely.) By signing this document, we released the vendor from any responsibility in the event that anyone should become ill as a result of formaldehyde outgassing. What a mistake!

As a result of my illness, I learned to make my own cleaning products out of common household items like baking soda, vinegar, and borax. (The book Better Basics for the Home by Annie Berthold-Bond is an excellent resource, if you'd care to try making these yourself.) Ever since I started making my own green cleaning products, my home has never been cleaner nor smelled better. For example, today I cleaned the toilet bowl using a combination of vinegar and baking soda. First, I sprinkled baking soda inside the toilet bowl and used a brush to scour the inside of the bowl. Then I added vinegar to the bowl, which reacted with the baking soda and formed a mountain of bubbles. (This part is fun to watch!) After the reaction subsided, I scrubbed the bowl with the brush again and flushed. Now not only do I have a sparkling clean toilet, but my skin and lungs are happy...and so is my wallet.

A Belated Christmas Gift

As part of my new commitment to frugality, I'm making an effort to handcraft gifts instead of purchasing store-bought ones. Because I was recouperating from major surgery during last year's holiday season, I was unable to get everybody's gifts out on time. So, now I am playing catch-up.

Yesterday I completed an apron for my friend Vikki in Australia. As a basis for this project, I used Simplicity 4282 (View B). But then, of course, I just had to tweak it some! Because I wanted to show off the fancy metallic rickrack, I sewed it over (rather than partially inside) the binding around the pockets and hem. I also sewed a pale lavender metallic ribbon over the hem binding before sewing on the rickrack; but, this is hard to see in the picture below. Little did I know that my "tweaking" would add so many hours to the project!


The photo on the pattern package shows a model wearing this apron. In the photo, the apron appears to flare only slightly at the bottom; however, in reality, this is not the case. I was especially delighted to discover that it actually flares out in a bell shape, giving it a vintage look.

Sunday Morning Soup

For some reason, I didn't sleep well and woke up at 4:30 this morning with the itch to do something productive. So, I started a batch of my famous (!!!) homemade chicken noodle soup, which always begins with a golden mirepoix. (A mirepoix is a blend of mixed finely diced vegetables, typically carrot, onion, and celery, lightly fried and used as a seasoning in stews, soups, and sauces, or on which to lay meat for roasting or braising.) First, I cut up the vegetables, added a splash of olive oil, and sauteed them until they changed from translucent to light golden in color with a few darker bits. Next, I chopped up three carrots and a few stalks of celery in chunks, put them in a bowl, scraped the mirepoix out of the sautee pan, and placed it on top of the fresh vegetables. Already the aroma was wafting through the house, reminiscent of the smell of the beginning preparations for a Thanksgiving feast.



After setting the bowl of vegetables aside, I took a whole chicken, rinsed it off, removed the raw gizzards inside, and fed them to my very grateful German Shepherd, Sasha, who wasted no time crunching them up. Then I filled I big pot about 2/3 full of sparkling clean well water, put the chicken in whole and placed it on the stovetop. When the water began to boil, I turned the heat down and let the chicken simmer for about 45 minutes. When chicken was cooked, I carefully removed it from the broth and let it cool slightly before deboning. The hardest, messiest, and least pleasant task is removing the skin and cleaning the tender chicken meat off the bones, at least in my opinion. Because this soup recipe uses both light and dark meat, I returned all the chicken bits to the pot.


Next, I added to the pot all the vegetables in the bowl that I had set aside. Now it was time to add the spices. Usually I use poultry seasoning or Bell's seasoning, a good measure of thyme, salt, and pepper; but today I am out of prepared seasonings and thyme, so I had to improvise. So instead I added a healthy dose of sage, a few bay leaves, about a dozen juniper berries, salt, and pepper, relying on the mirepoix to provide the rest of the seasoning. I then let the mixture simmer hard for another 20 minutes. When the vegetable chunks were nearly soft, it was time to add the chicken bits. I like to use light and dark meat in my soup recipe, so the entire chicken went back into the pot, sans carcass. I then brought the contents of the pot to a slow boil, added the entire bag of wide egg noodles. We like a lot of noodles in our chicken noodle soup, and besides, the pot was a huge blue enamel one. After about 10 minutes of simmering, lunch was served.